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2011-03-13T00:25:00.003+08:00

Hi new baby! <3
:>

2011-02-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

xxx

2011-02-11T12:55:00.000+08:00

Using phone to blog now like cool only! Hahaha.
Anyway got to prepare for school soon bye!

2011-01-18T01:50:00.003+08:00

I NEED TO FIND SOME PLACE TO RANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT SERIOUSLY!!!

WHY NAFA SO MANY RESEARCH TO DO YET DATELINES SO FAST WHY NAFA SO MANY PROJECTS NEED TO DO WHY NAFA ALWAYS SUCK MY MONEY LIKE I PRINT NOTES WHY NAFA ABSENT ONE ATTENDANCE ALSO CANNOT MUST MINUS 7MARKS WHY NAFA MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE RIGHT NOW WHY NAFA CANT LET ME HAVE A GOOD SLEEP EVERY NIGHT WHY NAFA ALWAYS LIKE TO GIVE ME IMPOSSIBLE TASK WHY NAFA MAKE MY DAY SO BUSY TIL EVERYDAY IVE NOT ENOUGH TIME FOR HOMEWORK AND OTHER STUFF WHY NAFA ALWAYS MAKE ME STRESSED OUT WRONG I SHOULD SAID WHY I NEVER STUDIED HARD ENOUGH DURING O LEVEL WHY PEOPLE CAN DO WORK EASILY YET I HAVE TO CRACK MY HEAD STILL CANT GET ANY SHIT OUT RIGHT NOW. WHY I SO MANY WHYS!!!? ARGH. GODDAMNITZXZ. THERE'S NO POINT SCREAMING/WHINING OVER HERE I STILL HAVE TO FACE IT FOR ANOTHER 3YRS IN NAFA. I STILL HAVE TO PRODUCE SOME SHIT BY WEDNESDAY IN ORDER TO HAND IN. FUCKMYLIFE THIS SENTENCE IS COMING BACK TO ME. FML FML FML. I WANNA END THIS WEEK SO BADLY.

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2011-01-05T18:50:00.001+08:00

Time flies. 2010 seem like just started yesterday seriously. Recalling back my 2010 suck big times most of the events never failed to make me disappointed.

unexpected O's result, failed JAE/DAE, random stuffs, busy working for the first half year, got in Nafa new school, got to know awesome classmates and friends, being 18 this year, got approval from parents of my ink, 18th birthday present for myself- birthdayink, stressed over Nafa, unsatisfied gpa, sleepless nights started ever since school started, fall sick for almost 2weeks, meetup with Michelle and co, met my 10yrs bff, likeasisters' outing, meetup with people i didnt seen for ages, first time to marina barrage with people, esplanade with 5A people, had awesome 18th birthday bbq with all my loves one, wonderful family chalet, virgin trip to club, spent my Christmas eve with my loves one, had a blast filled with drunkards at punggol marina on countdown with all my favourite people.

Sem2 gonna start next Monday which mean morning train, sleepless night gonna continue again. Anyway i cant wait for school to start as well so my day will pass very fast and my time will totally occupy! I got nothing to blog now anyway, got my pay finally and i need a meal right now my first meal of the day Got to meet Joanna and co to rm now for Ky's belated birthday dinner now, i hope my hair faster get back to normal now and color plz remain this for now. kbye!

If i die young

2010-12-29T15:13:00.001+08:00

2more days to 2011! Cant wait cant wait. a brand new year. which mean i can start afresh as well.

Life had been good, occupied with school work, friends, family and funshion :>
Enjoyed stay at home watching funshion the whole day hehehe. Meeting friends lately too is good to meetup with those people i havent seen for ages. Likeasisters outing finally, Rapunzel movie awesome! Michelle and co for Just Acia. Family Chalet was a blast as well movie marathon too! Anyway i enjoyed myself so much :)

School gonna reopen soon in 2weeks time! swear i'll attend every single lesson this sem seriously!! I learnt my lesson hmm. gonna set myself a target. cant wait for school to start now. new stuff to learn! occupied my whole day again and every week will pass very fast. i like ! cant wait for Feb, May, July next year! Feb to change phone, May to my birthday, holidays and Taiwan trip, July genting trip with bffs! ohmygod. ahhhhh excited ^^

hopefully manage to see some people if possible. because they always never failed to make me laugh like mad. most importantly infront of them you dont have to pretend to be happy even you're sad :)

2010-12-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

you know what. seriously 2010 really are the worst year ever.

Recalling back, i just realised how suck cock this year was. Everything never failed to make me disappointed. Get this clear, EVERYTHING.

i dont know i want school to start now. i dont want anything but this for now.

#12

2010-12-02T03:14:00.002+08:00

Life has been great recently because im still having my holidays.
Well. rotting at home with funshion almost everyday. Even though this is damn lifeless but is the best thing i wanna do during holiday!

Most of the friends everyone keep saying im lazy to even head out. ya actually true, singapore so small so sick of taking train/bus to travel might as well stay at home save money right. And i think Nafa quite lousy. Is alrdy Dec yet i dont even know when is my result coming out. Funny enough. All my friends dont even know too. School website didnt even put anything, how are we suppose to know the results right. Talking bout this made me pissed off also. argh. pray hard the result will be what i expected!

Time flies. 1 more mth and i shall be back to school. suppose to start work today but due to some stuff im sort of jobless now damn pissed off srsly. but this is life. Thought my wallet will start rolling in some $$ but end up still the same. Sighs. Nevermind jiahao ask me to look at the bright side. And I got to know him recently. my eyecandy hahaha. Oh well. quite lame just friend. And i realise actually not that really yup you know . lol. Anyway is nice to meet new friend lah no harm also.

Had been spending money as well esp online. keep on add to cart add to cart and my money keep reducing. should stop this bad habit. and i dont know since when i start shopping online when i dont do that in the past. Hmm.

Just finished one bowl of maggie mee. this is damn sinful. and i cant sleep now even is alrdy 327am. miss all my friends srsly. all like went missing. If not im just too lazy to meet them cant help. i dont know what to type alrdy. just hope December will be a good month to start with also. please and thankyou.

#11

2010-11-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

xxx

2010-11-20T02:00:00.004+08:00

WA FML. FUCKING PISSED OFF SIA NOW.
MY FUNSHION IS NOT LOADING AT ALL EVER SINCE JUST NOW AND NOW I GOT NOTHING TO WATCH!!!
THEN NEVERMIND I ON MY ITUNES. NOW ONE SONG MISSING. WTH.
WHY MY INTERNET SO SLOW TONIGHT ALSO. DAMNITZXZ! STARHUB YOU SUCK BIG TIME!
KILL ME PLEASEZXZXZXZZ!!!!!!!!! -'-

OKAY I FINISH WHINING. STILL BOILING LEH. NB @#%$#^%$&$~!

#10

2010-11-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

Holiday equal nothing to do seriously.
Miss all my friends, miss 1b3 people, miss my likeasisters too.

Well. holiday is time for me to sleep and eat sleep and eat alright im kidding. If not sem 2 i'll be a pig. But cooping at home is the best thing ever during holiday, sleep til late afternoon, eat a meal per day, laptop on 24/7 watching drama, fb, msn, twitter and what's more... Trying my best to replenish my sleep as much as possible because when sem2 start. sleepless night gonna start as well.

Anyway got an event job all thanks to Zaty, starting from 1dec well hopefully the job is easy. Went briefing for today and is totally wasting my time and i almost fell asleep when the in-charge was explaining. most irritating stuff was, she changed the timing to 5 end up 6 then reach wtf right i know.

Past few days, good and bad things happened. Random stuff happened as well. I dont know what you thinking also. weirdo. Kay shall stop brooding over it. My drama is still waiting for me bye.

2010-11-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

Tumblr suit me better i think.
Bye.
Because picture speak a thousand words.

Photographs hook you up.

2010-10-23T03:26:00.000+08:00

Alright have not type anything here ever since dont know when. Had been a lazy mode to this space since school starts.

Well. im still alive a bad/good thing i wonder. Anyway doubt no one will view this space so yup. Life had been yup. School, awesome classmates, tons of assignments and home. What else can i add on, when no school, my life totally lifeless with only work but now school start, my life totally occupied with school stuff seriously no joke. Worse of all, i'd never had a good sleep almost everyday and this suck enough.

Sem1 left 2weeks mean all assignments gonna be completed by then. alright im counting down to my doom day left 11days. cool or whatzxz when most of my stuffs halfway done only. Forget it. i just cant wait for 04nov to arrive so my first school holiday will be here! yay! Cousins gonna plan Genting trip with only cousins no adults so sound right i know. i cant waittt! Xxuan told me maybe we going Bkk this Dec with Martin okay this totally make me look forward to my holiday too! But first of all, i need something called money ! Anyway Nafa made me damn broke no joke. hate this feeling man even though Dad gave me allowance every week.

Cant wait for my holiday, i wanna go Genting, i wanna work , i wanna sleep til shiok everyday, i wanna meet all my friends, i wanna watch movie ! Omg. but i dont want my assignment to come so fast ehhhh. anyway i sure gonna hell miss 1b3 bitachs and bastards hahaha! Esp my noisy and gossip clique :)

Is 3.23am now and im still awake thanks to my fucking non-stop cough. Gonna spend full use of my Saturday later to visit 2libraries for school research. Well, gonna emo myself and go alone hahaha. I miss bro, house turned so quiet w/o his srsly. Kay shall back to my gossip girl and sleep aftermathhhhh ! Long post. hmm i like.

#09

2010-09-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

2010-09-10T04:06:00.001+08:00

i realise i cannot stay awake at such hour. because i'll do stupid thing and high like shit for nothing. Tan Xin Yi ni okay mah ?

#08

2010-09-03T01:30:00.002+08:00

i dont feel okay now. i need some sad songs now.

#07

2010-08-31T03:13:00.002+08:00

Can you ?

#06

2010-08-23T00:39:00.003+08:00

#05

2010-08-20T02:03:00.001+08:00

2010-08-17T00:26:00.002+08:00

i feel so hard to pretend to be happy. how?
i feel so stressed over alot of things now.
i need someone to talk to now.

#04

2010-08-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

When 24hours is not enough.

2010-08-05T01:14:00.002+08:00

Busy of school recently, i mean really busy and im like abit sick of school passed so fast everyday which made me dont have the time to take a breathe k maybe only sleeping and break time during school hour. Im might sound exaggerating but seriously is so much different from secondary school life.

Maybe im still not used to how school operate, how lecturers threw one pile of homework everyday, how school ended so fast everyday and my weekends ended super fast right now. Dont feel like in the weekend at all. Because all the weekend were occupied with research, drawing, sewing, cutting. And everyday i reached home, is like really not enough time for me to complete my homework even for now my 3mindmap research still no avail. Mozilla Firefox nowadays with all the tab filled with research stuff.

Well on a happier note, school is absolutely fun with all those awesome classmates i'd in FMM1B3 : > I love my bunch of funny cliques hahah. well enjoyed the lesson with them. Love going lunch with them because im always the first one thinking what to eat at the beginning of the lesson haha. Shall update this space again. Need to complete at least one mindmap today before i sleep!

#03

2010-07-26T00:46:00.002+08:00

impossible wont turn possible. trust me.

2010-07-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

honestly speaking.

i've no confidence for doing well in my studies anymore ever since i did badly for my O's. i know my own limit because everyone out there is like more capable than me.

twomonths.

2010-07-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

School starts two days ago so far so good. Just that i dont really understand some parts and true lecture is boring aircon is cold just nice for sleeping. I think my school like cool or what, go toilet also must scan card come into the classroom also must scan card take lift also must scan card. like lol seriously zzz. But i started to like my classmates after today so many different funny people. Funny people like Maggie, Zelia, Zaty, cool tattooist dontknow what name, pretty mummy Sihui, mas selamat catcher that funny class rep, mr pak , yellowish girl, vj girl, international friends and goes on. i think my classmates all are super cool and i dont know half of their name. Well lessons havent really start yet stress havent come yet wait only. I swear im going pass my English for the first sem and stop attending the English extra lesson goddamnitzxz is freaking 3hours -.- That goes my Wed and Fri 9am-9pm kill me please -.- plus need to bring big bag to school on wed for pattern making lesson. sighs. im sleepy hit the sack tonight soon then even though tomorrow lesson start at 2pm.

2010-07-17T01:45:00.003+08:00

♥
hello is time to game over.

i hope time stop right now.

2010-07-11T01:13:00.001+08:00

hello i fucking tired right now seriously. I had been working non-stop for this few weeks because school starting soon grab any chance of working to earn money. The whole day working reached home yet still using computer and slept around 4am in the morning everyday. My life just goes on and on like this...

And i wasted my off day today and wake up even early just for the sake of going back Nchs for event actually my main purpose was not going back to see but meet all my friends. Love talk craps with most of them. Being called back for work last minute and guess what, worked again. Seriously im sick of cooping in compass everyday now til night.

Please get a life for time being, kay i cant take it anymore. Shall sleep super early tonight since i on my computer and stoned do nothing, lazy to reply people in msn and texts. Kay byebye. School starting in 8 more days... Me scare.

#02

2010-07-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

" Nothing was ever going to be ordinary or the same again. You could patch up whatever was broken, but if you were the one who had fixed it, you’d always know in your heart where the fault lines lay. "

.

2010-07-03T02:17:00.000+08:00

I enjoyed my night tonight with them.

I feel so sad because i hate you and myself for doing all those shit. I'll stop all those shit right now. I want school to start asap so that it can occupy my whole day busy. I think that my life now is good. I think i dont need to add anything to spice up my life. I want to let you go away like how he go away from my life. Im happy really. I just want an overseas break soon please help me get rid of this small red dot soon. I feel like drinking big gulp now. I dont feel like replying anyone in msn now. I wanna off my comp soon. I wanna lie on my bed now. I know im bad to avoid those people. I hope you okay now. I hope the both of us can still be friends. I regretted for saying all this now.

I think no one will view this space too. I dont care i like to whine and it make me feel better now.

We both missed it.

2010-06-29T01:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so...
Alright not in a mood today, had diarrhea the whole day and i really feel like dying. Gonna work around maybe one more week and school gonna start soon. Yes like a fast. My bank havent reached that number i want. I feel so sad. I'd so much fun yesterday at Ahyi's house celebrating birthdays. I missed all of them so much. I got my orientation form few days ago and yes finally. And i must be mad, while typing here halfway, fb-ing halfway, msn halfway and talking to Shan and K. Must be mad to promise there to go club with them this Wed -.- Shouldn't had say if K going, i going. He damn steady when Shan asked him. wtf. now i have to fulfill my promise. Kay i shall be back to msn with them bye.

#01

2010-06-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

" Sometimes you never realize how much you care about someone until they stop caring about you. "

it applies to me now. i guess.
ohwell. what's wrong with me now. suckballzxz.

New month.

2010-06-05T02:08:00.001+08:00

Life had been good all along. Time passed so fast one more month before school starts hmm gonna work more and earn more money!

Great bunch of friends around, beloved cousins around. Happpppppy only! ; )
Lepak at compass with Liuhuishan almost every night after work with our pearl milk tea! Luv going home late night. Luv walking back home with my ipod along. hehehehe.

Need an overseas break soon. yesyes. Genting/ Bangkok in August if possible with Liuhuishan, Liling they all cant wait!

Kay will update this space soon when im free.
I hope we're still friends and thanks letting me to know everything ; )

2010-05-24T23:53:00.001+08:00

Happiness has it's own way of taking its sweet  time.

On my 18th ♥

2010-05-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

I wanna thanks : Likeasisters, Friends, Cliques, Bff(s), Cousins, Family.
Who made my birthday bbq so successful plus memorable : >
Thanks people who wishes me in facebook, msn, texts, cards and many more.

I really did it. Played hard and went home around 8am this morning. I played too much yesterday, i had a best yet horrible hangover on my birthday. Martel, Chivas, Jim Beam, Whiskey thanks for making me high and shout like a mad woman. I totally went high and went around beating people with plastic bottles. Talked all sort of nonsense and kept on laughing for nothing. Thanks for those who helped me when im like drunk, helped me to carry my four big bags of stuffs home, thanks for those who attended it. Okay i've alot to say in fact but every single one who's there yesterday really made my day. Thanks you people for making my 18th birthday a memorable one yes.

Happy 18th Birthday to myself. Getting one year older actually make no different ya, but i think is time to have a change, think mature now. School starting in 2months time. I hope be able to excel well in my studies then. Ohyes I made a different wishes yesterday. Well i shall see if my birthday wishes really came true as time goes by ; )

♥ ♥ Me love you all because you all are the best thing ever to me : >

Awesome spells the answer.

2010-05-10T01:31:00.001+08:00

Liu Popo ♥ ♥

I got my birthdayink yesterday. I treated Mum and co for dinner yesterday as Mother's Day celebration. I got lots of thing to say right now. I so happy and satisfied with my life now. I cant wait for 15May for my birthday bbq because this is the first time cousins will be celebrating for me like this. Not to forget i cant wait to see all my friends/ likea sisters / bff(s) ; ) I cant wait for 16May to arrive when that day i turn 18. I cant wait for 17May to meet Martin and Sister plus Xiaoli for my birthday dinner. Im gonna play hard on 15May til next morning, go home and sleep all the way til afternoon and spend my 18th birthday like that. I think is cool, dont you think so? I love Liuhuishan for accompanied me yesterday for my birthdayink. I think my tattooist is super cute ohwell. I gonna find him back after two weeks when my skin peel off completely. I think my birthdayink is cool. I love my birthdayink. I love my 18th birthday present i got for myself. I love dad and mum who agreed for my birthdayink. One word, Great.

My life is going smoothly right now, what's more can i expect right? Maybe. I shall make some different wishes this year when my birthday yes ; )

Be satisfied with it.

2010-05-05T00:51:00.003+08:00

Well, my life had been good all along. Nothing really bad happened around me or happened to me. Working, meeting friends, home yesyes, having a lifeless life now because i still have 2months plus more before school starts, before stressing myself up yup.

I enjoyed myself during work, I miss Liuhuishan now, I'm gonna meet Xuan and M on Thurs to celebrate Sister's 18th, I'm gonna meet Liuhuishan and Xuan on Sat for our birthday ink hehehe. Me looking forward this week and next week. Because is my 18th birthday next week! Time flies ^^ Anyway this week and next week is fully packed now. Despite those days i said im gonna meet people, all the days im working. Oh. tired like shitzxz. Nevermind, shall work all the way til 13May and rest plus celebrating my birthday with all my wonderful friends ; )

Im staring at my computer for ten seconds now and i dont know what shall i type. I tried my best to fill this space up now. Phone is back to normal like happy only! I cut myself just now, leg and hand. Oh bleeding plus ugly scars. Doubt no one will view this space too okay i shall go on my television and sleep aftermath work tomorrow again bye.

P/s : Happy 18th Sister, luvyou ; )

lovely period.

2010-04-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

Shall leave this space til May. I've nothing to update anyway.
Life is the same everyday, just that i realise something recently.
Well, lazy to type more. Bye people ; )

HAPPPPPPY.

2010-03-24T02:22:00.002+08:00

Okay something happy appear in my life so i shall post now.

I GOT INTO NAFA!! :D :D :D
Omg is like suppppppppppppper happpppppppppppppppy can.
HAHAHA. Alright im just exaggerating already. Anyway thanks alot of people who supported me and helped me through. ♥ Greatluv guys! School starting in 19July which still got months but cant wait for school to start, gonna mug real hard for that 3years. Because gonna spent Dad's a big sum of money on my school fee, buy a lappy, preparation for school stuffs. So conclusion is my school cost a bomb i mean a big bomb pleasezxz. Shall not gonna let Dad and Mum disappoint again : ) Yes! My classmate-to-be Sue got in too. Woos. And Sarah's also my classmate-to-be. Hmm. First time cant wait for school to start man, unlike me okay haha.
And and and Tanxinyi better start saving all your money up manzxz! >:(

Well, cant wait for my birthday too. Gonna stain my life with Shan and Jiahao hahahahah. Like cool onlyyyyy. Okay im contented with my life right now with all the everything i had- winkwink : ) Bye post when i feel like again.

We crash everything within a second.

2010-03-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

Feel so "dontknowhowtodescribe" feeling right now. Had been working non-stop this week, so tiring even though i often fooled around, gossiping with colleagues and laughing like mad in the shop.
Worked half-day today and went woodlands to Erjiu's house, didnt managed to see those kids i wanted. Headed to Rivervale Mall for some groceries before coming back home just now. Ohwell, is my off-day tomorrow again. Shall i stay at home or out with those people? It's had been so long since i met Joanna and co. People are right, im indeed a lazybum haha. Feel so lazy to step out of my house.
Kay whatever, im lazy to type more now hahah bye.

A small little one.

2010-03-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

Hello. Im back to update this space again : )
Had been working and meeting friends recently, life had been good for me hahaha. Work had been like fun despite some funny/weird/irritating customers. Love listening to those songs during work, quite pissed off with one of the colleague there. She's okay hopefully i wont be working with her that often.
Met the same people everytime too. Went many places as well. Nah lazy to say out ; ) Anyway, I've nothing to update also. Wonder why last time i got so many thing to update but none of it now? Lol. Lifeless.
I shall be back here when something interesting appear in my life. Cant wait for my 18th birthdayyyy hahaha. Gonna get that present by hook or by crook-winkwink. Lameshit. Okay shall off to tv and sleep. By the way, i enjoyed my off-day today hahaha, rot at home like shiok only.

Count once count twice.

2010-02-23T01:50:00.005+08:00

" Most of the time, we can’t tell what’s wrong with somebody by just looking at them. After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell us a whole different story. "

Hello. Nothing goes haywire in my life recently, actually yes but shall not rake up the past. No point at all.Life recently with my lovely friends is fabulous ^^ Haha.Kay will update this space again.
Bye love.

Left here for now.

2010-02-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

Hello people, perhaps im just lazy to type everything out yeah. Went many places recently, did many things recently, miss many people recently anyway my life goes on the same like this.

Is Chinese New Year now, i dont know why. I felt super bored right now that's why i decided to come here type some words to fill this space up. Dont have the new year atmosphere at all, boring. Or maybe tomorrow, the moment i wake up and i saw angbao on my table as usual every year then will lighten up my whole day with new year mood? Hmm maybe who knows. Anyway the reunion dinner at godma's house just now was fab, had a great time.

Okay nevermind,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PLUS HAPPY V DAYYY! : )
Shall not mention how bored i am now. Bye people, i'll be back here again anytime so stay tune haha.

Muchlove.

2010-02-04T00:30:00.004+08:00

♥ More than word can express.

Will be back to update soon, everything is just fine.
Just lazy to update that all.Nothing goes haywire haha.
Bye. Miss. Love : )

With me.

2010-01-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

Life had been good recently with those people around. Everything is fine, that is more than enough for me. Spent the whole day today with my favourite bunch of them because of something, had been reminiscing bout the past when going home just now.

Too many feeling to express, too many thing to say. Well, the past five years memories with them is wonderful. " Will the 7 of us back again? " i asked Rowena this today. " Ya, we'll." she answered. Five years over, we did quarreled, we did cried together, we did funny stuffs together. Been through so many thing together, the 7 of us gonna have our own life soon suddenly i miss every single one of them badly. Seem like we gonna separate soon or what, i dont know. Just hope that no matter what, our friendship will goes on even 10 or 20years down the road. Thanks you girls for being there this few years, knowing you girls is the best thing ever to me, greatlove :')

Friends like Joanna, Jieyi and co, Linjie, Kuanyew, Daryn, Zion, Chinkiat and co, Jasper, my two bffs, 10years bff , everyone is 5A and my list goes on... Thanks for being a great friend, i dont know how to say, but seriously you people stand a place in my heart too : )

Family, i've nothing to say because is more than any word can express. Especially my dad, even though he was very irritating sometime but he was always the first one i thought of when i need someone. Thanks Daddy, me love you : )

Im not being emotional of what, just that 2010 a new year 18 this year. So many thing and many people made me feel that i've grown up abit. Thank every single one of you who make my life colourful and meaningful. Im really really happy and contented now ♥ ♥

Somewhere only we know.

2010-01-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hit the restart and pause it at our favourite parts.

Back.

2010-01-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

Im fine now people. Shall face the fact then, even though im still very very disappointed in certain subjects but no point crying over split milk :')

Thanks god for playing this on me, i lose completely. But at the same time, thanks god for giving me that bunch of good friends and understanding parent. Still remember that day when i saw my result slip, cried immediately like hell. Friends around me thanks for being there really. Thanks Dad and Mum seriously, thanks for understand and knew i'd tried my best but still felt guilty towards them. And also a big thanks to my 3 cousins for helping me with my stuff this few days, great appreciated :)

For now, sent my JAE, apply DAE already. I hope either one will be success if not i shall prepare for the worse which is retake this year. Just pray hard.

2010-01-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Everything is over. After grandpa passed away, this is the second time i cried this hard. I did badly for my result really very badly. What happen? i didnt expected this will happen on me. I really did studied hard but yet the result turn out like this. I felt so guilty towards Dad and Mum, cried even harder when i reached home. Ignored their calls,texts and not going home, caused them to worry for me. Im sorry. Thanks to those people who asked me to cheer up, but if i said im fine now, im just lying. Because even til now my heart is still really really very pain.

Brain crashed.

2010-01-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

Im working this few days non-stop. People around me thought im crazy, well at least it occupied my whole day and enjoyed at the same time. I'd fun on Wednesday class bbq, had fun fooling around taking many photos with class peeps, missed that feeling when i got half-drunk, shouting, laughing like mad and talking all sort of nonsense. I met up with people yesterday night after work, home around 12plus and of course i'd a great time with them as usual. 2more days to O's result. how how how. freaking nervous. My backache is killing me seriously, hellshit. I feel like having that again right now. What am i thinking now. Actually im just tired really tired byebye.

twozeroonezero.

2010-01-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

Hello people, im lazy to update this space plus dont know what to update so had leave this space for a few days already. Anyway, im enjoying my life with those people around me. Had been going out often too, will upload some of the photos soon. O's result is coming out soon, feeling nervous of course. 2009 is indeed not a smooth one, but no point raking up the past because is all over. Hopefully 2010 is a better year ahead : )

2010 resolutions - good result for O's, more money, get a new phone soon, get my pay soon, people around me be happy, my 18th birthday present hehehe, forget all the bad stuffs and start afresh.

For now, start afresh. New beginning, new life, forget you, forget everything in 2009.
<3

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2009-12-23T03:13:00.002+08:00

I'm freaking tired.
Mentally, Physically.
Time to end everything soon.
Game over. The end.
Goodbye.

♥

your presence.

2009-12-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

why am i feeling so emotional after Mum and Dad know everything? I dont know.
Im lazy to type everything out here but yet i still feel like typing. Contradicting huh.

Off-day today, met up with people i missed. Went off halfway to meet Dad, Mum and Bro for Sakura at Punggol End. Because im working this Sat so cant have dinner together as Sat is that Asshole Bro's birthday. Spent around 3hrs plus there eating buffet steamboat bbq. Was damn freaking full plus nice. Saw Mingyang working there too, chatted abit.

Had a long chat with Mum and Dad there too. They knew everything single thing now. Everything, even thing that i dont intend to tell them in the beginning all thanks to Bro. But anyway result turned out fine, they didnt questioned me like a criminal but just asked a few question and this is the only thing im glad. Relieved after they know, perhaps they should know my age like this is common. Took shuttle bus back to Compass, walked home together. Enjoyed today dinner because it had really been so long we had dinner together like this. Either im working, Dad working, Mum working, Bro not in or whatever shit.

M chatted with me in Msn not long ago. He'll be going into Army in January, times flies super fast. I wish he'll do well in there and hopefully Xxuan will reply my text soon when she is back to Spore. If possible im gonna meet him and Xxuan up. I miss the both of them so much.

I dont know what the hell im thinking, what the hell im feeling now. Feel so emotional now, the thought of those questions Mum asked me, the thought of those words Mum said to me. I feel so... speechless.

Why people always say im the one who dont know how to cherish? Am i.

Random.

2009-12-12T17:38:00.001+08:00

Being random. This little kid is so freaking cute! :D
Why cant my brother be like him?!?!

Work yesterday like alright. Time passed very very slow last night i dont know why. Break alone so sad, Roy Koo that loser commented on my drink again! Shit him. Yingying, Jul, Sheena went off one by one. Kept quiet throughout the night, dont feel like talking at all. Taoqin and co asked what happened to me. Haha. Why im so quiet last night, nah im just tired. Ended work around 11plus trained the last train home. Saw Melvin at Dodby ghaut, chatted in the train along the way home :) Homed around 12plus.

Slept til 2plus 3 today. Haha shiok! Off-day today no work no work. Finally off-day im staying at home. Work tomorrow til 6pm, Bro's advance birthday celebration at home, able to see many people tomorrow! ^^ Still finding time to buy Bro's present. you know busy people hahaha.

Last night was Msn-ing with people, using computer aimlessly, blasting itunes, off to youtube and slept around 5am. My time is totally screwed up now. Slept in the morning, woke up around late afternoon.

Gonna off to youtube to continue my show, bathe aftermath. Shall persuade Dad to have my favourite fishhead steamboat for dinner later hahaha. It'd been a while since i'd dinner with family :)

Bye people. Will be here soon again, lazy to upload photos next time then.

Still Around.

2009-12-07T01:24:00.001+08:00

Withlove.

Kay, am still enjoying and loving this kind of life. At least, now my life is much much more happier and meaningful. Work made me felt so enjoyable with many nice friends there haha. Nothing much to update because the same stuff everyday. Work home no more.

Bye. I've nothing to blog already, gonna off to drama.
Shall update here soon again : )

3am every night.

2009-11-25T03:36:00.001+08:00

"Because sometimes it’s easier to say you don’t care than to explain all the reasons why you do. "

Im back here again in fact i should sleep right now as work tomorrow. Life is good recently, despite those moody stuff and some small things that caused my mood down that day. Fortunately, everything is back to square now hehe with a big smile everyday :D

Had been working and working nowadays, even though is tiring but not bad killed my time, earned some money, make new friends, do new stuffs, forget something. Til now, am still enjoying this kind of life seriously. Work nothing to say, the most slackest work i ever had really. Nothing to do everyday, talking whole day with friends, playing around and those cute little kids because i really got nothing to do at all. Lol -.-

Cant wait for December because Family Chalet may coming up soon, maybe meeting Bffs up, my Tan Ahfat birthday celebration and many events too! How ah, im so enjoying my life now compare to previously perhaps maybe dont need to face some people, something, some facts that's why ^^ Ohyes, Julian said my coloured hair is quite obvious now and she said that i cant get into school like this when result day but well who cares, not gonna dye back anyway shall see how then haha. Dont jealous k Julian, Lee Min Ho's poster still in my magazine sia. HAHAHA.

I miss so many people right now, feel like meeting every single one lor. Kay nevermind i'll meet everyone of them soon kay ! ^^ Howeichyi is going to find me tomorrow because he got no job and wanted to come for an interview rofl. I love my new life. new people. new start. Because my life will still goes on as usual even with or without you :) Plus maybe shall meet all my girlfriends out for dinner soon k, catch-up session! Shall off to sleep afterthis then, bye will be back here soon. Had typed too much rubbish here already hahaha.

P.S : HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY SHAN! :D
You're always there when i need someone, always the first to console me when im feeling down, always bring me laughter when with you. There's too much to say but anyway, thank you! Me love you many many ! ♥
-doubt you'll see this too haha

The irony part.

2009-11-18T02:09:00.002+08:00

"A lot of people are afraid to say what they want.
That’s why they don’t get what they want."

Im the one of them indeed.
Everything gonna be back to square.
Time to end everything soon. you me everyone.

End everything soon.

2009-11-12T16:12:00.001+08:00

Im back here again because...
O LEVEL IS OVERRRRR!
Okay seem like no word can express my feeling about it, anyway just one word. 爽! Haha :D

Time to clean up my room, actually i had already threw away 2bags of papers few days back but Mum keep nagging and ask me to clean up as soon as possible. I wanted to clean up too but i dont know where to start from so nah forget it. When im really free or bored then i shall spring-cleaning my room plus paint a new colour for my room. HAHA!

Last day in Nan Chiau yesterday, even though i always said cant wait to get rid of this school but somehow when leaving the school yesterday after paper, sort of missed that kuku place. I dont know, is kinda contradicting lor haha. I'll missed the classroom and canteen the most! Ohyes, auntie's tomyam how sad ): Alright, i'll miss this kuku place for sure which i'd many memories there plus also the people there (':

Had a fun time with A1 students and people yesterday haha. Hopefully i can see everyone soon. Slept around 4am in the morning mainly because of my stupid act. Forget it shall not mentioned, wasted my money and made me suffered the pain even til now -.- Went out with J in the early morning for some stuff. Shopped around, saw a guy-(inside story) Okay he's quite cute haha! ^^

Im lazy to blog more, im going off to sleep now beat tired plus since got nothing to do too haha. Kay gonna do something to my hair maybe tomorrow. Zaijian : )

Love Lockdown.

2009-11-07T02:50:00.004+08:00

Sometimes we take for granted the people in our lives that mean so much and when we finally realize that, it can be too late. Take advantage of every minute you have, hold onto and cherish every second. Have no regrets and never forget those that made you who you are.

Tongue Tied.

2009-11-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

♥ Clarice Ong (:

Hello. Im finally back to blogging. So many thing happened this few weeks, sometime just have the urge to blog everything down but you know, laziness explained everything haha. Firstly, thanks god. O level is finishing soon, i left only Mcq for next week so now im already self-claim
that O level is over, party mood since yesterday. LOL.

Thought of O level ending in few days time make me feel super happy, but another part i'll miss everyone badly for sure. Especially those memorable memories with people in school, browsing back my photos just now. Indeed, 5years had passed. Skipped lesson with people, loitered around in school, making fun of teachers during April Fool day, putting effort for teacher's day present, the stupid staircase, the long corridor as if our playground, waterbomb in carpark, write 500lines of horrible death, L to the power of 7, Krishan's theory and many many more... Good thing have to come to the end. It takes a lifetime to end all this :)

Okay, back to reality, i'd fun yesterday. Back to the usual place, hehehe pool ! Met people, slacked, had a good laugh really, that fat cat at the same place again and blah blah blah. Homed around 11plus. Had already planned for my following week haha. 11nov out with people, 12nov out with Xiaoxuan, 13nov Clar's house for mahjong, 14nov teacher bringing us out plus bbq then and more... Ohyes, Me gonna find a job soon after having fun because that feeling of going out with empty wallet was damn sad so am gonna work earn money and buy new stuff ! ^^

Shall enjoy this few days, sleep til late afternoon, doing nothing the whole day, sitting infront of the computer whole day before i start revising my Science for next week mcq hahaha. K im going off and watch my tv soon bye.

five seconds. heartbreaker.

2009-11-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

Feel like coming back here, my brain totally cannot absorb a single shit for ss now. 4hours of tuition today yes killed me completely. I'd not been paying attention today during tuition. Man, guilty. It cost a bomb today for this 4hours of tuition. Lol -.-

Okay. Rowena came over to my place to stay overnight yesterday. Hmm, not productive at all. I didnt managed to memorise any essay into my brain. We talked, we laughed, we studied abit, we watched youtube and slept around 5am this morning haha.

Just came back home not long ago. Today tuition, study at plaza, void deck, home. Am glad O's is finishing soon, Combine human and combine Science left. Please please over it soon soon soon. Now i only pray hard the rest papers will be easy, pray hard my brain dont go haywire at this crucial period, pray hard 11Nov faster arrive.

Zai jian. Im going to force myself to absorb some essay before i turn in. Ohyes. Tomorrow 4hours of tuition again. Beautiful Sunday gone case again. How sad can it be ):

Im totally exhausted. Seriously....
you never understand how.

empty.

2009-10-18T14:56:00.000+08:00

Life had been so lifeless recently due to the arrival of O's.
Eat, sleep, study. No more.

I miss L4d, I miss Hg plaza, I miss Chalet, I miss going home late night.
Everyday seem so packed now, tuition later. Tomorrow, Wednesday and Next Sunday too.
Flooding in process. Night class. Tuition.

Anyway, had sort of early celebration for Dad with relatives in my house yesterday. Hopefully he enjoyed. Maybe not going school on Wednesday take a break and celebrate for him on his actual day. Dont feel like going school facing teachers, people, friends. Dont knowwwww.

Its had been so long since i really typed something here. Kinda miss this feeling.
Heading out soon, butttttttttt. i feel like sleeping now.

Gonna be the best and the last.

2009-10-06T16:39:00.005+08:00

1B, 2B, 3B, 4B, 5A. <3
5years, is time to bid farewell to everyone of them.
Thanks, you people make my school life so colourful.
I'll miss everyone of you for sure because you people is the best thing ever.
Especially you you you and you...
(':

Perhaps will reveal my bloglink and back to blog after O's haha?
Left only 20days, please work hard Tanxinyi. Is already the last round.

Study Mode.

2009-09-13T01:29:00.001+08:00

Perhaps should just leave this space for time being.
I should've wake up long ago... Not enough time alrdy.
Study mode study mode study mode.
But i still havent ask Dad to lock my computer up yet haha :S
Bye. Love. Miss.
(:

After so many things, realise I've many nice people around me no matter what.
Xiexie, wo hen man zhu le hehehe. Especially girlfriends <3 :D

Because we're just strangers.

2009-09-12T01:43:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed my Friday night. Again.
Love going home late, love walking back home alone, love sitting in the void deck with people late night and study.

Spent my nights with people, books, jokes and laughter outside recently ^^
Study mode study mode study mode.

Really feel shiok because no one know my blog now hahaha. Julian said might as well buy a book and write everything there instead of blogging since i dont wanna let people know about it. Who cares. Wo xi huan jiu hao ^^
Actually the main purpose... I dont wanna let you know anything. Anything at all.

Kay shall off my computer now and back to my essays. Spent my time memorising my Ss and I havent study my Geography yet. Damn shitzxzxz. Being random, cut my hair yesterday. Ohwell suck man.
Bye people. See, i love updating my blog often now :D

from the start, we shouldnt contact back each other again.
everything shouldnt had start again. ya.

To make it count.

2009-09-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

Love walking late night home alone with the accompany of my ipod, quiet street plus quiet night. I dont know why just feel great doing this, flashing back those days in my mind, enjoying my songs, looking around with the street lights on :)

Only close people know my new link, well make me feel good now because i can finally write thing down without worries. In the past, i kept mentioning that dont think is the right place writing everything out here but now i've changed my link. So no one will know and of course you wont know too.

I dont know. I think is better you wont know anything about it. Feeling just dont know how to describe haha. Im talking nosense anyway.

Finished memorising two social studies essays just now. Hopefully hard work pay off. Maybe shall read some geography and off to sleep bye people :)

It'll be fine because nothing will goes wrong.

Like a washing machine.

2009-09-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

Troubles are like a washing machine.

They twist and knock us around.

But in the end we come out brighter, whiter and better that before.

After much considering, i decided to change my link like finally. So people wont be able to find my blog, i dont know why. Suddenly dont feel like letting people to know my blog at all. But well, i'll still tell people my bloglink if anyone ask (: Changed my blogskin and blogsong too. Okay satisfied because me spent time sitting infront of my computer changing those html codes. Know what, is such a waste of time actually ya...

Did i mentioned School Holiday started i mean one week break. Yes a so called "Holidays" again. Spent almost everyday in school, no different at all lor -.- Thought finally tomorrow i can sleep late and dont need to attend any class yet dreams shattered into pieces. Krishan's lesson in the morning tomorrow, pray hard pray hard my Friday is free. Shall plan something on my Friday hehehe ^^

Overall, life had been good with those people i hanged out with for the past few week. Am really did enjoyed, thanks people :D Spent my time outside almost everyday okay im studying with that bunch of people. Left 50days or even less to O's. What to do what to do. Study hard please Tanxinyi! Maybe i shall ask Dad to lock my computer up after this week.

Went for tuition just now and Buangkok for dinner with Rowena,Shirleen and Julian as Qunzhe went off first. I'd so much fun with them especially because of Julian. Enjoyed with the three of them as usual ^^Homed around 11.

I miss talking rubbish with Linjie in Msn now and she's not online. So sad.
Actually i miss talking to you too.
)':

090909 a nice date yet nothing special comes by.
Nevermind. I shall go copy the essay i borrowed from Jul and sleep aftermath bye people.

Swear it all over again.

2009-09-06T22:47:00.001+08:00

With this Asshole.

(:
Still good as usual.
Lazy to say everything. Because too much.
Bye. Love. Miss.

Used to be.

2009-08-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

Was browsing through all my folders and photos just now, memories flashed back.
Actually... Once in awhile flashing back those days, feel good.
:)

New month tomorrow, time flies. Which mean left bout 1mth for O's, gosh. Tanxinyi Tanxinyi function well for time being please.
By the way, Dad bought me new earpiece today for my ipod, hehehe shiok! Make me feel even great with my ipod along ^^
Went study just now at Plaza Mac with Edgar, Rowena and co. Sort of productive, managed to revise some amath.

Going for a movie tomorrow. I know i shouldnt even think of movie when Wednesday is amath paper. Well, I still cant resist the temptation and i know i'd been giving excuses to let myself to have a break. Sigh, what to do what to do ): Shit you Tanxinyi. I shall restrict myself for those stuff after tomorrow. yes i should.

Kay, shall off for my amath so that maybe i wont feel so guilty.

Dont rain like forever.

2009-08-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

Just reach home not long ago again. Had been reaching home late recently yet Dad didnt nag at me at all, weird. Lol.

Went study at night with Rowena, Julian, Jasper and Kuanyew yesterday. Not very productive because we'd been talking bout our secondary life like Sec1 and 2 when Jasper still our classmate. Haha, his pet and many stuffs happened during those times well, i enjoyed those days too right people (: Plaza around 11plus to buy Mac for my dinner, 7-11 then home around 12am. Home then comp-ed and slept around 2am plus.

School today in the morning for Krishnan, met Daryn at nearby void deck and went to school around 8am. Krishnan's lesson ended around 8plus like so lame, woke up so early for his lesson his lesson ended so fast okay -.- Went 308 to have breakfast with Daryn, Linjie and Xiuer. Enjoyed eating with them, talking craps especially Daryn Lim that asshole around haha! The three of them came my house aftermath, guessed what. Linjie and Xiuer watching dvd, Daryn occupied my computer end up i'd nothing to do and played my psp. Waited for Rowena to come, then went out to meet the usual people to study again. Jasper plus Julian around, ohyes both joker haha. Yet still love being with them hehehehe ^^ Went Rmall with them, daiso for hours then Long John for dinner and went void deck aftermath. Made our Teacher's Day present, gossiping, laughing. Ohyes, Julian " Coffin" and "Will" (inside story) HAHAHAH. I laughed till almost cried because of her just now. Hanging out with the 3 of them make me feel great ((:
Homed around 12am again. Actually i felt abit guilty for going home late when i supposed to study hard for my exam now. Okay, im tired got to wake up early tomorrow bye.

Love Saturday night again (:

End when you stop.

2009-08-26T00:08:00.004+08:00

Just reach home not long ago, tired.
I late for school today, know why? Slept around 1am plus again -.-

School, Compass, Home, Compass, Void-deck, home.
After school, compass for kfc with people, then home. Actually dont intend to go out, but dont know why suddenly feel that time is running out so decided to meet Rowena, Julian and Shirleen for study.
Went compass around evening then settled down at Library to study. Managed to finish up some emath plus amath. Went nearby void deck and continued with it because library is closing. I dont know what's wrong with me after that,went super high playing with my hoodie, blasting my ipod, singing like nobody business and talked all sorts of rubbish then Julian was like, Xinyi are you okay? HAHA. Who cares. Walked home alone and reached home around 11plus.

Ohyes, Daryn that asshole leak out my secret ! ): Shit himmmm.
Eyes is going to close soon, my bed is calling me alrdy haha.
Kay shall sleep early tonight, nights people (:

Happy 17th Birthday Louise, bff !
:D
All the best, 10years righhhhttt ! hehehe <3

Actually i know, actually we both know.
:)

your heart is an empty room.

2009-08-23T01:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday.
School, Home, Compass, Rmall, Home.
I love hanging out with girlfriends in the night, siting in the void deck, talking all sort of stuffs, fooling around, do our homework and home together.

Today.
Plaza, School, Hougang, Serangoon, Home.
Spent my whole afternoon with my chemistry tuition homework plus that two noisy girls around. Met up with that asshole Daryn before going to school for Krishnan's lesson. Fooling around with people in the school, talking rubbish with Krishnan plus oral practice as well. Do funny stuffs in school when left only me, Daryn and Shirleen(inside story) Hehehe. Im shocked when Shirleen played piano, she can actually plays well okay. Sat Krishnan's car, went to fetch Julian then off to Serangoon for dinner plus Daryn and Shirleen along too. Having fun in Krishnan's car, love it! Before heading to Serangoon, went to Hg because of Krishnan. Serangoon for Prata, Krishnan's treat ! ^^ Thanks. Ohyes I think Daryn is a super nice guy today hahaha dont ask me why. Headed home by Krishnan's car again after eating, i love tonight but so sad Rowena didnt join us, dont sad kay lol !

Okay going off before Dad come in and nag, by the way i just finished oovoo(webcamming) with Natalie, Rowena and Samantha haha. I've fun with them, i want a microphone too is like so fun! Hey next birthday, a microphone for me righhhht !! :D -winkwink
Bye people, is already 1am now im going off for my dvd haha.
You know what, need a break todayy. Love Saturday night. Dont ask me whyyyy (:

Take a break, clear everything.

2009-08-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

Feel like coming back again, i've so many things to say right now.
Ohyes, mixed feeling :) / ):

I got my A1 finally, but why only a merit. Didnt expect an A1 this time round seriously. Cheer up to those peeps, work hard again end year kay ^^

Started my tuition yesterday with Rowena, Shirleen and Qunzhe. Still managed to absorb during that two hrs. O's really make my life so tiring for the time being, please 2months more quickly over. Cant wait to get rid of this school, enjoy the couple months of holiday and have a long good sleep.

School till late evening like almost everyday. Monday Krishnan till 10pm. Tuesday Emath booster till 7pm. Wednesday tuition till 9pm. Thursday Amath till 7pm. Friday out study till late night too. Mum said she'd not been seeing me around at home for so long. Force myself to stay inside my room and study alrdy, ten year series + itunes every night now. Dad said i like to waste electricity, on my computer let the itunes plays and i afk haha. Well who cares, for the sake of this O's. Had been sleeping around 1am plus ever since i started to mug hard on my studies. Even though i really did absorbed into my brain but late sleeping caused me late for school almost everytime -.- And guessed what in order not to get detention. I cabbed to school at least once a week. Damn shit, waste my money just like that.

Linjie said my eyes always swollen and red every morning she saw me. I shall try to sleep early tonight, it had been a long time i really sleep well (: Sometime i really hope to get sick, take a break so i can avoid my studies and stuffs for a short while. K wishful thinking, i know i shouldnt even think of falling sick at this moment, is quite silly. But i dont know, feel like falling sick to avoid stuffs. Had been skipping my dinner too, so random but the main reason is either lazy or sleepy ya. Haha. Rather sleep than eat :X

Kay, im going to study, let my itunes plays, afk again haha. Bye (:

一个人的星光-许静岚

2009-08-10T19:24:00.000+08:00

在末班车上
一个人回家路上
这个城市到处是熄灯的窗
夜色有点亮
有星星出现在远方
和我一样
孤单的在发着光

分手就像
失去翅膀
想念着你的我
飞不到原来的方向
我一路上
不断回头看
多么希望
你会阻止我去流浪

如果天空闪着我点亮的光
你的世界是否会变得宽广
我只有离开你的倔强
却没有能忘记你的力量
就像眼前黑夜关不掉星光
每当像现在我感觉到悲伤
我会努力用你教我的方式飞翔
回家的路虽然很漫长
但是我至少会比较勇敢
试着飞向你不在的地方

分手就像
失去了翅膀
想念着你的我
飞不到原来的方向
我一路上
不断回头看多么希望
你会阻止我去流浪

如果天空闪着我点亮的光
你的世界是否会变得宽广
我只有离开你的倔强
却没有能忘记你的力量
就像眼前黑夜关不掉星光
每当像现在我感觉到悲伤
我会努力用你教我的方式飞翔
回家的路虽然很漫长
但是我至少会比较勇敢
试着飞向你不在的地方
在回家时候
一个人守着星光
我期待你能给我一点希望

(:

From head to toe.

2009-08-08T11:26:00.000+08:00

I've many things to blog right now, so many thing flashing through my mind. But those who know me, know Im not gonna spill everything out, i wont. Haha.

Good/Bad things happened within this few days again. Really cannot imagine what will happen next or even later on...
Sighs. Same stuff, same people, same conclusion made me cried again. What's wrong really, what happen to everyone, why thing turn so sour, why is not the result i wanted to see. I thought after a talk, everyone will be back to square. I thought what i prayed hard for will came true. Nope, it didnt. 5years of friendship we ended no more turning back anymore. I was stunned by what both of you said. I cried because all the words you two said, because i cant bear to give up this friendship like that so easily. Nevermind, i dont think i've the need to continue this. Since no point saying this, shall put everything to an end (':

On a happier note, haha Me had been living well recently. School ohwell, like the same. Clar's house for Mahjong yesterday, had fun. I missed his house, but no corn soup sad haha. Ohyes managed to win some money ytd too hehehe. I missed Hg green and many more (:

Actually, i know will have the third time again. But who cares, i think is alright anyway ^^
Okay, I've not had my breakfast/lunch yet. Still havent bathe yet, still havent pack my bag yet. Shall do it soon before heading out later on, but after i finish using my computer first hehehe. Bye people (:

More than word can explain.
(:

Speechless.

2009-08-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

I dont know how to describe my feeling now.
Like everything goes haywire.
E V E R Y T H I N G
Pray hard thing back to square, remain back the same please really.

Went out alone just now, guess what came back with two hands empty. I dont know what to eat, pain killer out of stock. Tired.
Maybe i should see a doctor tomorrow, having headache recently. It's killing me.

Lifehouse- From where you are. /Repeating in itunes without fail.
Hello, im sick of pretending nothing happen when it does. Why.

Second time.

2009-08-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

I dont know where to start anyway.
I love yesterday because i enjoyed being with them (:
-Slacked with them, studied, Hg plaza pool, L4d, dinner, bused home. Thanks Daryn for the L4d hahaha, i've fun with them yesterday really. I missed those days... K nevermind.

I prayed hard for thing to change yesterday but end up nothing.
I missed that bunch of people, Hg plaza like always.
Maybe everything take time to heal, to turn back like before...

Julian, Cheerup kay. I dont wish to see you so sad, even though i cant help you anything but no matter what happen, im just a phone call away kay. We'll be there for you always, because i bet no one wanna see you like this too. Thing eventually will solve so focus on your O's now. Dont worry too much k.
/Loveyou <3

What if i say maybe another time again )':

No more.

2009-07-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

I've no motivation to study.
I cant afford to fail anymore, really.
:'(

I hate this kind of life.
you'll never know why.

Learn it.

2009-07-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

Happy or Sad, life still have to goes on no matter what.
I start to realise it now...
(:

By the way, Cheerup Jiahao, dont sad k (:
Krishnan's lesson again tomorrow. Wa shag.

Lifehouse, you and me.

2009-07-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

"Cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do, nothing to lose. "

Lifehouse = Love.
Because old songs make people reminisce back the past.
Why not 30hrs a day, not enough for me.
Time machine how i wish i've one right now...
Alright, school tomorrow till 430 ): Shag.

Square.

2009-07-26T00:24:00.001+08:00

Withlove.

There too much for me to say right now.
Shall blog when im free again, bye (:

More than enough.

2009-07-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

Kay, I know my previous posts was rather emo or like something happened.
Thing happened yesterday. Yes, on Julian's birthday and supposed to be a happy occasion yet turn out like this. 5years of girlfriends, the group i cherished the most ended yesterday. You're the one who destroyed everything completely okay, why did you change so much Eugena Phang? Not longer the one i know anymore, you know how disappointed we're yesterday when we know truth. You fling with guys or do whatever shit i can dont be bother but to girlfriends sorry is too much. If i can i'll just slap you right now, i wont give a fucking damn for the consequences know why, at least maybe a slap will wake you up. Maybe you think you've no fault at all, but seriously did you think of us when you said that yesterday even those harsh words to Julian. I know you'll do what you think is right, but hello to me you're more than a bitch. I wont feel great saying you're a bitch but do you ever spare a thought for others first not? 5years you know how much we've been through not? And you gave up so easily w/o trying to retrieve back this friendship. Then what more can i say ? Since you dont even give a fucking damn. Your actions, your attitude forced me to say out all this. Love it or not, is your problem. I wont even bother to say sorry to you if i say anything wrong, because i think you wont even bother right.
And Chanchinkiat who i really regarded as good friend. End up, another bastard. Eh i dont know what's wrong with you also. Changed, gave up this friendship because of her worth it or not. You better go think yourself! Where is the Chanchinkiat i know? What you did to Julian yesterday is too much also, you know i more afraid to lose you this good friend than gi okay. Because i know when i feeling down, at least this joker will joke me up when i need too. This friendship ended in one night also. And dont blame Yukang, he was not the one who said everything out. Im the one who said everything out because you two really making me damn fuck up seriously. You dont like it ? Come find me then but i wont say sorry to you. Never, if you dare to do why cant let people know right. So dont blame anyone else. In fact, do you think i feel good to say all this out?

Oh so much better man, saying this all out. I've alot to say but im lazy. Not worth it.
Cried the whole day today. I never felt so disappointed before but thanks to this two yes. Kept too many stuffs inside, and finally exploded today. Cried not because i lost the two of them get this clear, they dont have such big impact to me. Cried today because Mum, sick of living, studies and rubbish stuffs. i cried again when someone trying to cheer me up. I dont know why, when i saw what you typed in msn. I cried. Okay dont ask me why i dont know also. Shall remain everything the same k. I thought i'll be fine when im outside with them. Yet i cried again the first time, i bet they must be shock because i seldom cried infront of them. Sighs. Somehow i dont know i cry for what, but at least explode out. I've no energy to cry k.
Those who cheer me up, thanks peeps! Muchluv ^^ Will be fine.
What a long post, okay promise when Mel send me those photos then i shall post those happy suffs, bye (:
Reply tags soon too haha.

Dont say sorry to me.

2009-07-18T13:33:00.007+08:00

I thought i can overcome everything all by myself.
I thought i can hide all my feelings.
but actually i cant...

Stop crying like a bitch now, Tanxinyi.
Will update when im back tonight.

2009-07-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

Everything ended, really ended.

I dont know. Too many feeling tonight.
I dont feel like posting tonight, post tomorrow then.

Even though you really make me damn fed up, im serious. Sorry i've to say this, dont make yourself like a bitch. Is over my limit, what girlfriends are for. I feel like crying now because you destroy everything in one night, yes 5years ended just like that.
Speechless really...

2009-07-17T16:36:00.005+08:00

I know my word abit harsh now.
But hello, you force me to call you this.
You better ask yourself what did you do and get this clear okay.

Argh. Will update tonight.
Going out now,bye.

16th today/ Studying in progess.

2009-07-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

-Credit, Onepail haha sorry i steal from your blog (:

Hi should be busy mugging right now, but my brain need sometime to digest because had a study session with the same people just now. Not bad, i managed to finish part of my Geo.

Today like not a day for me, phone stuff make me emo, that little girl make me fed up, rubbish stuff make me upset, Jul singing make me laugh like mad, Shirleen dancing make me almost cried. I had a long talks with them, but im not going to pour everything out. They know me (:

Someone birthday tomorrow! 17July.
Hi, xiaoxiaoli you know i luv you right. Hehehehe ^^

Didnt had my lunch and now no dinner again, any kind soul please ):
Will update again after next Friday when prelim end. Ohyes did i mention, bill over again ? Who cares -.- i got used to it so still continue msging like what lol. Mr.20th come faster kayyy.
Shall continue my revision now and enjoys my new songs! ^^

Too much yet too late.

2009-07-12T13:12:00.001+08:00

Dad, Mum and bro had left the house 1hr ago because they said they dont wanna wait for me so left without me. Lol. Nevermind, i shall go alone myself haha with the accompany of my ipod ^^

Ohyes, i had a dream last night, guess what. Itouch rofl-.- I was like regretted now kay because Dad actually wanted to buy Itouch for me yet i rejected and choose ipod nano instead.
K whatever, 做人要知足。Lol.

End tonight.

2009-07-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

Went pool with them just now. Enjoyed.
Ohyes that two gays make my day today in school :)

Hi i regretted now.Regretted the start.
Actually, i dont know what im talking ya.

And im listening to emo songs now like wtf.
Lol so unlike me right.

Bye, im gonna force myself to focus on my tv now ^^
Howeichyi said he'll listen to my ranting this Sunday hahaha.

爱太痛.

2009-07-09T20:33:00.003+08:00

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

哭不能哭笑不能笑
没有了你全都不对
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

-吴克群

Bye going out now for dinner with someone haha (:

2009-07-08T20:43:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, what can i say?
End up still is another you. But not you.
Bye.
(:

Sad case.

2009-07-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

My mood is super happy because no school for me tomorrow.
Youth day!

Phone just rang, wlao totally kill my mood.
Guess what, got to be back to school tomorrow for Chinese Remedial.
:'(

And I love Tan Ah Fat, who never fail to make me laugh ^^
Hehehe.

2009-07-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

All thanks to someone. Sorry im not your maid or whatever, i dont think i need to do this because of you. Is your problem also not mine!!!! Why should i have to help you when you give me attitude. Fshit. Damn itzxz.

Thank you, mum argued with me for nothing again just now.
Like hello what the f man! you also not the one who take the exam. Nb.

My mind just went blank right now, i dont know what to type, what to say, what to do.
Like blank suddenly again.

If life goes on like this, seriously just kill me.
I'll feel much better okay.

Jw, please take care.
Miss you, xoxo.

Not you but me.

2009-06-28T00:59:00.004+08:00

I dont know what to update, what to type.
My mind just went blank right nowwwww.

Had been sleeping late recently and school gonna reopen on Monday.
Nothing to say, because Prelim2 coming aftermath.

Watched Transformers yesterday. Almost all slots are full, luckily still managed to watch it. Awesome show, love all those sound effect and those robots plus Megan Fox is damn chio.

Studied today at plaza with people again.Then Hg Plaza to meet Ck, Yk, Mq, Gi, Wl to wait for N. Bus89 to Downtown to meet R then Cheeyen's bbq. Stoned and slacked over there as usual. Home-d aftermath with some of them. Nothing much, because i dont know what should i say.

By the way,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEEYEN! ^^ -27June
HAPPY BIRHTDAY KORKOR! ^^ -28June

I dont know what to type already, blank.
Bye, tired shall off to sleep now.
And yes, Chinkiat get well soon k! (:

Being a Happy Kid.

2009-06-21T03:55:00.000+08:00

Cute right i know (:

Hi. Im a Happy Kid today.
And i just got home not long ago.
:D :D :D

Went shopping with S and T.
Ate alot the whole day, well im not sinful at all who cares!
Had Sushi, Desert House, Stingray hehehehe. Made me happy today.
Laughed alot, walked alot, shopped alot.
Time flies super fast with them around.
Met R, N, J, Ck, Yk, Wl at Hg plaza bout 11pm.
Because Yk's Advance Birthday, so sort of celebrated.
Kay is 3.30am now. Mean his birthday today, felt kinda guilty because i never get anything for him when he got me something on my birthday, hey belated k (:
As usual, Hg plaza pool till 1am plus.
Cabbed home with R, Ck, Yk as the others went off already.

Mum havent reached home yet, Dad sleeping, Bro sleeping.
Like so shiok! Im enjoying blasting my songs,talking craps in msn now haha.

Ohyes, alot of people said im dumb because Father's Day is just today and i thought is over. -.- Lol. Nevermind. Maybe shall get something for Dad. His leg is getting worse? :'(
Pray hard he'll be fine. Pleasezxzxz.
Anyway, Happy Father's Day ! Love you to the very maxxxxx.

And I found that song, love it man.
Okay is going to be 4am soon shall say hi to my bed.
Shall upload photos next time, bye people (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUKANG!
:D All the best, xoxo. Open your social life kay haha.

Need a reason to be happy. yes.

2009-06-20T15:38:00.001+08:00

Me going out now, will blog when im back tonight. (:
Chewfangyu that Si Ah Hai webcam-ing with me now haha.
Eh CHEWFANGYU. I good right at least never post your photo down.
Bye./

Twist and turn, knock down.

2009-06-18T17:41:00.000+08:00

Back from Jw's Chalet.

Met N and R at plaza around 3plus.
Took bus to Hg mall to find J plus looking for Jw's present.
Then S came aftermath to find us first, love bickering with her haha.
Went Hg plaza to meet the rest of them plus abit of pooling.
Met Cy then bused to downtown.
Reached Chalet around 7plus.
Talk, Eat, Played, Self-entertain for hours.
Walked in and out just to kill time, nothing much.
Back to Chalet around 10 i think.
Cut Cake, Sang Birthday song for that Birthday Boy (:
Then back to the same venue doing the same stuffs again.
Im like bickering with Cy/Should i said Cy gl-ing me the whole night lol.
Nothing much, went Pasir Ris Park to waste time, think , stoned.
Back again, eat, played poker card, day-dreaming.
The guys left first around 3am plus.
Me, R, N, Cy decided to go Pasir Ris Park again to kill time.
Walked to the end of it, talked, laughed.
3 of them played swings while i sat there, i've no energy to play anymore.
Damn those freaking frogs, made us screamed like hell!
One after another one while we walking along the pathway.
The 4 of us screamed, laughed and ran like some insane .
Walked some wulu place to reach Elisa Mall for the first bus.
Well, even though was scary but i still enjoyed (:
I bet the 4 of us was totally awakened because those freaking frogs man.
I went home first while they went Plaza Mac for breakfast.
Too tired so decided to went home first, reached homed around 6.
When people going work, im going back home rofl -.-
Bathed, and slept till 1pm.

I guess im gonna sleep again now. My eyes was swollen now like well again -.- Ate nothing the whole day again. My thumb was burnt because i was boring and played with Ck's lighter ytd -.- Dumbass.

I felt guilty because i just found out Father's Day had already over and yet i got nothing for Dad): Well i think Dad know i love him more than any guy right ? HAHA. Like of course! Despite him nagging and whining at my ear sometimes. Still that No.1 in my heart ^^

And you, just let it be okay. I wont bother anymore.
I dont like the way it behave now, back to square rather.
Hahahahahahahahaha. I dont know what am i writing now. So random.
Bye love. Karma do exists.
:)

The hardest thing.

2009-06-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

Hi. Because my heart went itchy that's why im back here again.
I suddenly dont feel right to say everything out here but i dont know just feel like typing whatever rubbish/shit here just to make myself happy now yes.
(:

This whole week, nothing much perhaps i should say i forgotten almost every single stuff lol.

Friday met Bffs study at Pasir Ris's library, not productive at all lol. I was like crapping with M after doing 9questions of Emath. I guessed the only one who can concentrate is X. Library was too quiet that i cannot studies haha. So end up went Ntuc bought those steamboat stuffs to Xuan's house for dinner haha. The whole process was funny, the girls did nothing while most of the stuffs was done by M plus her brother. Dinner was awsome ^^ Movied atermath, then homed around 10.

Saturday met J and Ky at plaza studied. Well managed to do more questions with them haha. Studied for few hours and we started to gossiped and talked then Me and J decided to find R, C, Yk at Rmall nearby. Did something stupid while on the way to Rmall, lol. Lucky no one there at that moment. Slacked, laughed, talked, Ck was like a childish kid i sweared lol ! Cy came aftermath then went separate way. Rmall bought bubble tea with J then walked homed around 10. Homed bathed, S called so decided to meet her up. Met S at void deck slacked, talked, laughed then homed around 1am plus. Slept at 4am that night.

Sunday woke up at 8am by my dearest Mum -.- Went Da jiu house for some rituals then Amk hub for some shopping ^^ Bought many stuffs, well spent mum's money like water that day hehe loveyou! Then went back Da jiu house do nothing so Me and T went out to kill time haha. This Sat gonna meet T and S for shopping ! HEHE :D

Monday nothing much.
Tuesday which was yesterday, hmm nothing much too. Went 401 for dinner, saw X and ahem i guessed she was stunt when she saw me haha. Then homed around 10plus. Ohyes i was awake by an Asshole who msged me in the morning of 3am plus huh. Hi you better think of your ipod now before cursing me fail my O's oh. Haha noobie shit :)

Well going Jw's Chalet later on.
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JIAWEI !
:D All the best, xoxo.

HIATUS.

2009-06-10T18:00:00.004+08:00

Cute right. Mr. Strong ^^

Hi actually i've nothing to blog, just blog for the sake of blogging. Lol.
Shall leave here for a period of time. But but but tag as usual kay people! C:
Because Tanxinyi had been lazy and tired to say everything out here.
Lastly, just trying to advertise class blog haha.
(: Do visit ! Here is the link: 5A's class blog.
So bye people, muchlove.
Miss.

I dont wish to, but no choice.

Once yet never end.

2009-06-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

Yellow Yellow dirty fellow!
Met this bitach today finally, missed her grandmother story haha.

By the way, is Ahma's Birthday today!
Happy Birthday AhMa !
Love you to the very maxxxx ^^
Ate buffet, crapped with all cousins, played with AhFat and etc...

And Happy Birthday Yinwan too!
All the best and loveya ^^

Enjoyed today- Because ate too much, slept too much, played too much, crapped too much.
Off to BOF, bye people ^

2009-06-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

Now.
Ring the phone.

Byebye.
Fall sick really making me tired.

You fall and left.

2009-06-06T01:29:00.000+08:00

Two different poles will never meet.

Dad is a cheater-bug, he leaked out my secret!
):

With that smile.

2009-06-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

Because im lazy and tired to explain everything.
So did i answer your question ? (:

Changing blogskin definitely wasted alot of my time, siting here for hours man. School today, the first time i think Chemistry is so easy to learn haha. Met Jul and Shirleen while waiting for Daryn that slowpoke. Went 7-11 with him and slack for awhile before heading home. Anyway, enjoyed slacking with that asshole, well is okay i dont think he will read my blog? Haha.

Actually staying at home rotting is a good idea haha.
At least my brain can stop functioning for that moment.
Did i mention i cut my hair? I mean trim my hair haha. Well hmm suck huh -.-

Kay, mum gonna be back with our dinner ^^
Btw, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY MUM! -3June.
Tomorrow gonna celebrate mum's birthday, buffet buffet!
But i didnt get her any present yet ): How great am i! Nevermind shall ask bro later on.
Bye.